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Dear draft

Dear draft,

I will set you down for now. I know you'll try to keep speaking to me, as I ride my bike home, as I try to sleep. I know you say something, in between saying nothing and saying everything. Nothing says nothing, and nothing says everything. There is no perfect experiment.

I have laid down a thousand tiny threads to try and tell your story, and I can never get it quite right because no story is ever perfect. I have tried to weave you together over the shouting of so many voices and interests and doubts, tried to figure out how you fit in, where you stand out. I am tired and frustrated but I will keep coming back. It is hard to know that the impact isn't proportional to the struggle after all. ["No one will ask how long it took. They will only ask, 'Who built it?']. I wish you did not cause me such feelings of sorrow and regret for your imperfections, but I hope I have the will to keep going.



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May. 20th, 2016 01:27 am (UTC)
it's amazing i'm feeling some kind of writer's vibe here the past few days as well, feeling very unsettled about being in the moment like uncomfortable in my own skin..

i am not trying to rationalize it, but sitting with the feelings to see what surfaces..

maybe the silence is what the doctor ordered?

something and nothing.. let those threads come to you

; )
May. 23rd, 2016 06:28 pm (UTC)
Bad Advice Fairy
I used to call people's voicemail and read poetry to them.

You could read a couple paragraphs of your draft to a friend each day, WITH A POEM IN BETWEEN THE TWO PARAGRAPHS.

If they guess which poem it is, someone has to buy someone some food. Yay! #gamifyyourlife
May. 24th, 2016 10:34 pm (UTC)
Re: Bad Advice Fairy
Hee hee!

There are signs that my advisor might actually read the thing(!)
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