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Name the anxiety

I'm working up to a state where I can get writing again.

Yesterday I had one of those days where I went off the deep end of the anxiety-productivity inverted U-shaped function because of being in this transitional period. Both scrottie and I woke up at about 3:30 am, unable to sleep, because he, too, has a lot on his mind these days.

For me, one of the hardest parts about dealing with high anxiety is knowing that to some extent I just need to wait until it passes, and be okay with the fact that I cannot be 100% productive all of the time. I mean, I had to work really HARD in the week leading up to the conference (and during the conference), so it's unsurprising to crash afterwords, especially given the recent reminders of my mortality (via Dad's diagnosis) and all the horrifying political bullshit that has hit the fan and been flung everywhere.

I will make a plan, and I will do my best to carry on.


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Jan. 14th, 2017 03:34 am (UTC)
My whole week has been an exercise in accepting that I'm just not going to be productive this week.

I tend to crash after big meetings/conferences too. Even when it seems fine at the end.
Jan. 14th, 2017 08:19 pm (UTC)
Right there with you. Baby care feels like such a hamster wheel and I keep working myself into a lather about cooking more, eating better, exercising, getting to work on time, being super efficient at work, what was I thinking bringing a baby into this selfish world, etc. etc. And what does this anxiety get me? It just begets more anxiety.
Jan. 17th, 2017 06:30 am (UTC)
Yeah, no one can be on all the time, but I sympathize with feeling vexed by reality there.
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